Im not sorry anymore, I didn't want to struggle with an Eating Disorder, I didn't ask for it. So instead of expecting me to apologize, to beg you for forgiveness, please just hug me close, make me feel loved and appreciated, please don't shame me anymore for my struggles. Click on post to read more!

Benefits Of Recovery!

I had a really hard weekend with my eating disorder this past weekend, it has been extremely loud and really put me down and in a low mood. So this morning I've been looking back on my recovery journey so far, reflecting on all the benefits recovery has given me, reminding myself why I'm in recovery and giving myself inspiration to stick to my recovery. Looking back on my journey so far in recovery I have have come a long way, though I know I still have ways to go, the progress I have made so far makes me so proud of where I am today. So I wanted to share a few of the things that inspire me to keep striving towards full recovery, and I hope they can inspire you too! Click on post to read more!

Safety Net

The other day I experienced a feeling I never thought I would feel, I missed my Eating Disorder. Its ironic, missing the illness that had almost taken my life, but I do. I was thinking of ways I had been challenging myself recently and I realized I have been eating food this past week that I never though I would be able to eat again, and my Eating Disorder hadn't been that loud about it. Click on post to read more!

Be The Change

**CONTAINS TRIGGERING INFORMATION, PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU THINK YOU WILL BE TRIGGERED** Mahatma Gandhi said "You must be the change you wish to see in the world." So I'm starting with me , I'm changing my ways, and I'm going to be the change I wish to see in the World. Click on post to read more.


Recovery is NOT easy and its a challenge I battle 24/7, the eating disorder has even buried its way deep into my subconscious and manages to attack me even in my sleep. It is hard to challenge an eating disorder awake in real life and simply impossible when you are having a bad dream. But you best believe that as hard as it is to challenge, Im going to challenge it when I wake up, because challenging it is the only way to stop fearing it, to gain back freedom and your dreams.  Click on post to read more!