What I tell myself when doing good in recovery makes me feel bad.

What I tell myself when doing good in recovery makes me feel bad.

These past couple of weeks I have really been pushing myself, taking control of my recovery, and doing . . . good. Its hard for me to say this because my eating disorder (E.D.) makes me feel bad for doing good. It gets, loud, really aggressive, and makes me feel horrible, sometimes to the point where I am convinced by it. In these moments I take a breath and use a skill recovery has taught me to fight back against the E.D.. Click on post to read more. ❀

Nightmares

Nightmares

Recovery is NOT easy and its a challenge I battle 24/7, the eating disorder has even buried its way deep into my subconscious and manages to attack me even in my sleep. It is hard to challenge an eating disorder awake in real life and simply impossible when you are having a bad dream. But you best believe that as hard as it is to challenge, Im going to challenge it when I wake up, because challenging it is the only way to stop fearing it, to gain back freedom and your dreams.Β  Click on post to read more!

Degree or No Degree

Degree or No Degree

I know I am not a failure for putting my University on hold or maybe never returning, because I have learned so many lessons these passed two years that no University could have taught me. I am strong and smart, and no less of a person with a degree or without one. I am in no way a failure, just a girl doing what is best for herself to live a happy life. Click on post to read more! πŸ™‚

Summary of my Recovery Journey so far

Summary of my Recovery Journey so far

I wanted to write a brief summary of my recovery history, and give a little insight into what my recovery has looked like so far. I don't go into details, and I don't talk about weight or calories because I find that unnecessary and not helpful for myself and for those trying to recover. **CONTAINS TRIGGERING INFORMATION, PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU THINK YOU WILL BE TRIGGERED** Click on link to read more! ❀

Birthday Brews!

Birthday Brews!

Sorry I haven't posted in a little while, the past week has been pretty busy, Anyway, Im back! This past weekend was my love Lundan's Birthday weekend and to celebrate we went to his favorite craft beer brewery located in downtown Houston TX, called Saint Arnolds! Click on post to read/view more! πŸ™‚