Something I haven’t posted about on my blog so far is about my recovery journey from an eating disorder, and I want to do some posts every now and then about my Recovery. I have been in recovery for almost two years now, and out of Impatient treatment a year this October. Im still on my journey to full freedom, recovery, its a big part of my life and something I’m not ashamed of talking about, its my story, and if talking about it helps anyone else fight for recovery, I want to share it. So here is my first post! 🙂
Recovery is the hardest thing I have every done and still continue to do. The past couple weeks the Eating Disorder has creeped in and I have been loosing sight of why I’m in recovery. I want to remind myself of my reasons to continue fighting the Eating Disorder, and to continue to be in recovery.
- Get My University Degree: I want to go back to University and get my degree. The eating disorder was the reason I had to stop in the past but its not getting in my way when I go back in the future to get my degree and become the photographer I dream of being.
- Food Freedom: I want to laugh over a meal with others, order whatever I want without the eating disorders rules guiding me. I might get married one day and I want to be able to enjoy my delicious wedding cake with the one I love and not be calculating the calories in my mind. Freedom and the thought of making lovely memories without the eating disorder gives me so much hope.
- Nourishment, Energy, and Strength: I want energy so I can travel the world, and explore. I want strength to care for not only myself but for others too. I want my body strong enough to nourish myself and maybe one day, be strong enough to nourish and care for a baby of my own.
- Being Comfortable with me: I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I want to feel good when trying clothes on while shopping, I want to wear a swimsuit out with pride. I want to appreciate all the amazing things my body can do, and stop trying to change it. I want to accept myself for me.
These reasons are some of the few that inspire me and keep me on my journey to recovery everyday. I will be able to do all the things I want to because I make my future decisions not my eating disorder. I will have MY future without an eating disorder, because I want recovery and I will get it.